CO, NASH ANDRY G.

"Co, Nash Andry G"

    In Philosophy of the Human Person, one thing I realized is that sometimes you do not notice how much something affects you until you are forced to slow down and reflect. I’m not someone who likes to be the center of attention. I enjoy quiet time, just gaming, watching videos, and thinking in silence. I am also not that confident in real life. I overthink, I procrastinate, and I tend to leave things hanging until the last minute. This reflection? Yeah, even this.

It just hits me now as I write it. I always thought that is just who I am—someone who works best under pressure, someone quiet. But the truth is, sometimes that mindset is just an excuse to avoid facing things. There were a lot of moments where I knew I could’ve done better, could’ve tried harder, but I let the moment pass. Not because I didn’t care, but because I didn’t believe in myself enough to even start.

One time, I was supposed to submit a project early. I told myself “I’ll do it tomorrow,” then tomorrow became next week. By the time I checked again, the deadline was gone, and so was the chance. I felt bad, disappointed, but also numb—like I had accepted that it was just how I was. But then I started noticing the pattern. Not just in schoolwork, but even in gaming. I kept losing matches not because I lacked skill, but because I hesitated, second-guessed, and did not act fast. It’s like a metaphor for how I handle life sometimes. That simple thing hit me.

At first, I viewed it emotionally. I was blaming myself, comparing myself to people who always had their stuff together. But now that I think about it more broadly and with my perspective, maybe it is nott just laziness or weakness that overpowers me. Maybe it's fear, maybe it’s comfort, maybe it’s my way of coping with situations. But seeing it from a more holistic and general view, I realized that staying in that mindset won’t help me grow. I need to start small, make little changes, and build confidence bit by bit. Growth doesn’t have to be loud. It can happen in silence too.

Truth is, I’m gradually learning. Although I am still quiet at times, I do still play a lot. I leave stuff last minute sometimes. But now I’m more aware of it. This reflection is proof. Philosophy taught me that understanding life is not just about big moments, but about how we think, how we react, how we see ourselves. And through this quiet, awkward, and honest journey—I can say I have started my perspective venture, seeing myself more clearly, even if it’s a bit too late. And maybe, surely, that’s already a win.