"FRAGMENTS OF RAINNE DAFFODIL" BY SALA, RAINNE DAFFODIL N.

   "Fragments of Rainne Daffodil"

    Rainne Daffodil, a name that truly describes me. Rainne represents the somber side of me, while Daffodil represents the brighter side. My name is somehow connected to me in many ways; it's like this name was made to be mine. Coincidentally, Daffodil is the flower of my birth month— March, although my parents didn’t intend to name me Daffodil for that specific reason, I believe the name Daffodil suits me. Rainne, however, is a name I’m in denial about. I find it exasperating how a name expresses the depth of me, the depth that brings me into tears, just like how rain makes the clouds cry. 

    I’m selfish, but I’m not penitent about it. It's normal to have your heart set on something or someone. If I burn for that desire, I shall cross over milestones just to grasp that flame, even if it means distinguishing someone else’s flame. “Selfish”, “greedy”, “callous”, they said. God forbid a girl fill her heart with blood. A human being has potential if they follow their heart as long as their heart is pumped with blood to move forward. If we keep repeating the cycle of pumping blood from our hearts, our limitations cease to be; the world is my oyster. I am more than just a living organism on this planet; I am a purpose that will add to the whole.

   Blinded love, anger, joy, sadness, fear, and disgust. Emotions are what shift my thoughts; thoughts like this lead me to make mistakes and miracles. In situations where fragments are scattered, I chose to focus on one fragment without realizing the whole. A scattered puzzle cannot be fixed without the missing pieces, and a piece cannot know where it belongs without the other pieces. I tend to figure things out on my own, yet it will always end up with me relying on others to back me up. To conquer a stumbling block, holistically, I think each thought of the person involved in that situation should be acknowledged; in that way, we will be able to comprehend the situation and find a solution for it, instead of dwelling on one’s biased thoughts.

   Every often, I can be too in favor of my thoughts to the extent that I like to believe it’s somehow true to others. Each individual perceives things differently. Others may not know the whole picture, which leads them to judge negatively or positively about the situation. Truth can visibly appear in the picture, while opinion is how one deeply perceives and understands the whole concept of the image. For instance, “ The man in the picture is shown sitting at the beach,” that is a fact; however, in the depths of art, the man is sitting at the place where he and his lover used to hang out. This situation is similar to the poster I drew. What visible elements can be seen are true, and the meaning behind those elements deeply reflects my life. It is merely up to the observer to understand how these elements represent my life. As I write this reflection paper, I seek the truth among these elements, hoping that in the depths of these I will find out who I truly am and figure out my purpose in this world.